The Little Things

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LoveBookOnline.com

created a 23page book summarizing why i love him.


be the morning light that brightens my day,
be the northern star that guides my way.
hold my hand as we stroll
remind me all the reasons I fall.
 
hold me close and never let me go,
tell me how you love me so.
kiss me on the forehead when I weep
tell me it’s okay because I have you for keeps.
 
if all the waves keep coming,
and the warning signs are flooding,
remind me it’s a phase of learning
to a stronger relationship that we are building.
 
and if in the small things you find what may set us apart;
let’s try to talk it over, make amends and adapt.
let’s promise to always be at each other’s side
through highs and lows of every stride.
 
because I see you beyond your sins,
and I love you more beyond all those griefs;
you are the morning light that brightens my day,
you are the northern star that guides my way.

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Antukin

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naalala ko noong una kita makita, feeling ko magiging malaki kang parte ng buhay ko. kaso may gf ka non time na un; at ako naman, ang panget ko lang. wala naman nagpakilala sa atin noon at malamang hindi mo ko natatandaan. pero aaminin ko na may kaunting kaunti akong pagnanasa sayo non (alam mo yan).9 years forward, eto na tayo. ano ba meron sa atin ngaun? wala naman; bukod sa close na tayo dahil mas maganda at mas sexy ako ngaun (hehehe), mas masaya ako at mas mahaba ang pang-unawa ko pagdating sa pag-ibig (naks) dahil sayo (naks ulit).

naiintindihan ko na hindi normal ang relationship natin (abnormal ka kasi).naiintindihan ko din na mas malabo pa sa sikat ng buwan na maging priority mo ko (dahil nga abnormal ka). pero… pero gusto ko ipaalam sayo na mahal na mahal kita, na oo, promise ikaw ang priority ko (gaga kasi ako) at hindi kita iiwan until you ask me to (tanga ko lang).

isa lang ang wish ko (wag na kaya? baka mag-back-out ka pa eh)…

 

“…Mahalin mo nalang ako

Ng sobra sobra

Para patas naman tayo

Diba?”

 

[Chorus]

Sasalubungin natin ang kinabukasan

Ng walang takot at walang pangamba

Tadhana’y merong Trip na makapangyarihan

Kung ayaw may dahilan

Kung gusto palaging merong paraan

 

Coda:

Hahalikan nalang natin ang kinabukasan

Ng buong loob at yayakapin pa

Tadhana’y medyo overrated kung minsan

Kung ayaw may dahilan

Kung gusto palaging merong paraan

 

Gumawa nalang tayo ng paraan

Gumawa nalang tayo ng… (baby)

Gumawa nalang tayo ng paraan”

Wanderlust

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2016: i’ve been bitten by the travel bug and was literally out of the country prolly 5 times. 🇵🇭🇺🇸🇨🇦

I am so grateful to have spent the Christmas holiday with family in New Jersey. I am looking forward to more travel adventures in 2017! To God be the glory!

gorgeous flowers at Farmers Market, Bergenfield, NJ

Grand Central Station, New York

Radio City, New York

the Statue of Liberty, New York

Manhattan from Liberty Park

Westworld and Sin City

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a photo diary of my Fall season travel to Arizona and Nevada

a year ago, i was supposed to meet my then boyfriend at this State. i came in one year too late. Kanab, Utah

what makes these grass white? apparently it was just the frozen morning dew. on the road to Arizona

the day i was called a “city girl” because i was having a hard time trailing down the edge of that cliff. i was wearing the wrong shoes! South Rim of the Grand Canyon, Arizona

definitely grand! Grand Canyon, Arizona

i agree, one of the greatest engineering feat since the Egyptian Pyramid! Hoover Dam, Nevada-Arizona

bright lights at Sin City. Las Vegas, Nevada

Kindness

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Life is not always fun, not always happy, and not always beautiful. I remember moments of being overwhelmed by the workload I have, and moments of being worried that I might become redundant when things slow down at the office. I remember being so utterly in love with someone that my heart feels like it is just about to explode, and I remember times when I am just so numb and cold.

But guess what? I found out that kindness is the key to everything. When you’re sad, lonely and depressed; show a little bit of kindness to someone and it will surely brighten your day.

There’s a small coffee shop right next to the building where I work at. Every morning before heading to work, I would drop by that coffee shop to buy myself a hot chocolate and a breakfast sandwich. I would also buy gift cards to give away to homeless people. (Yes, I do prefer giving away gift cards than cash).

One fine Wednesday morning; while on the way to that coffee shop, I was scrambling through my bag for change to buy me my morning fix, I thought about being more frugal as the economy is getting worse. As I was about to enter the coffee shop, I gave way and open the door to the woman about to exit. On her way out she said thanks and handed me a gift card similar to what I’d usually buy and told me “have a happy Wednesday”. That gesture made me feel grateful for everything. That little act of kindness was another epiphany that God will never ever forsake me. I felt truly blessed crossing path with a kind person.

So whenever you feel down or worried, go out and give or show a little kindness. When you feel happy, share your happiness by being kind towards someone. Life may not always be fun, not always happy, and not always beautiful; but it is also not always difficult, not always sad and not always ugly.

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The Monster in Her Story

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Few weeks back, she asked one of her friends why her friend would never get back with her husband since they have a kid. “Why won’t you settle back together for the sake of your child?” she asked. “It’s traumatic” was all her friend said. And she understood her. Been there, done that. Her friend said; if it was her, she would probably have stayed because she’s “too nice and churchy”.

A couple of years ago, her relationship of over five years had ended over cheating. At that time she thought that maybe her decision to leave him would change if their relationship was bonded by the sacred matrimony. She thought that maybe she could forgive all the physical and emotional abuse. But now she realized that they would probably have the same bitter ending, because she could and would never trust him again. Even if she forgives him for all the abuse, there will always be an elephant in the room, a shadow of polygamy and fears following her until all her doubts lead them to divorce.

He never asked her for forgiveness, and her guess fate ensure their paths never cross.

She told her dear friend how what happened has changed her. She is no longer the nice person trying to play the role of a Messiah in every relationship. She no longer ignores all the red flags of a villain pretending to be a prince charming. She no longer settles for anything that is less than what she deserves.

The one who broke her heart will be monster in her story. But until she figured not everyone is bound to hurt her, the monster in her story is called doubt.

“…sometimes Love brings you flowers, then it builds you coffins, and far too often we fall to our demise.”

 

11 PM

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5 AM, I was at the parking lot praying as I start my brand new car. The built-in GPS said it would only take me 20 mins to reach my destination. I knew it’s too early, but it was my first time to drive alone and I was driving my first car. I was not too confident about myself driving so I gave myself an extra hour as factor of ignorance. 15 mins later, I was at a remote construction site; lost. I called my most reliable friend who apparently doesn’t take calls at ungodly hour. I braced myself and continued driving relying on my GPS and my unbelievably poor sense of direction.

I arrived at my destination 2 hours after an involuntary scenic tour around the city; stress plastered all over my face…

Two years forward, my cars’ mileage is over 30,000km. The stress I felt during those times was not entirely a big deal. I braved my way to cross-country driving, even up to the most remote part of the northern Canada.

11 PM; under the bridge; my boyfriend and I were sitting at the back of his car. The thoughts of me stressed out on driving flashed back as I try to break up with him. I realized that just like my first time driving; given the time; everything will eventually be okay. My feelings at this moment would no longer be valid. In two years or so, I will again look back to now and smile at how better I’ve become as a person. With the hard-learned lessons tucked underneath my bruised heart, I move-on in time…

 

But Only…

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my first painting


“If I were a painter
I would paint my reverie
If that’s the only way for you to be with me..”

Vincent van Gogh once said that “there is nothing more truly artistic than to love people”. I believe him.

I remember the last time we talked about us. Why letting you go is the most logical decision to make. You know that I love you so much that I’m willing to break every part that remains in me just to ease your burden and make you happy. It may not be fair, but we both know it is right.

“…We’d be there together
Just like we used to be
Underneath the swirling skies for all to see..”

Maybe in a different place and time our hearts would meet again; at a place where everything seems at peace, and at a time when everything lines perfectly together. Where all we could think about is just you and me; when all that matters is us.

An abstract painting where all the emotions we’re hardly able to contain were spilled. An impressionism seething with life; a magical depiction of what could be our love.

“…And I’m dreaming of a place
Where I could see your face
And I think my brush would take me there
But only…”

To the place I first met your gaze I’ll leave my broken heart. I’ll cherish the happy thoughts and leave all the heartaches behind. I’ll move on, I will never look back, and I promise I’ll be vigilant with this decision.

“…If I were a painter
And could paint a memory
I’d climb inside the swirling skies to be with you.”

Weekends

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I noticed that every time I would tell my boss that I’ll be out of the country over a particular weekend, he would put me on a 60hr workweek as though I’m about to resign from work. At the current state of the Oil and Gas economy, I could never complain about my workload. I’m a proton. To me, it’s just a matter of learning to bend and try not to absorb all the stress. Try to find a work-life balance. As the saying goes “work hard, play harder”, so here’s a picture summary of my stress relievers:

Reading

Biking

My Violin

Gardening

Painting (My first painting)

Coloring

Travelling

Coffee

Fusion Yoga


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Nature Hike

Spring/Summer 2016 : a Photo Diary

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It’s spring again! Yey! Hello sun! 😍😍😍

I made my annual trip to the Philippines last April (through May). Went back to Canada, worked for a week, and flew to US for a week-long roaming. Jetlag is for amateurs! Here’s a photo diary of my most recent travels:

Sunset by the beach (Nasugbu, Batangas)


Me and my cousins beaching together (pun intended. Fortune Island)


Paradise is just an hour drive from home (Nasugbu, Batangas)


Never sleep, Manhattan


Washington, DC


Smithsonian Museum, Washington, DC

Lincoln gave me the goosebumps. One of the best places I’ve been to. (Lincoln Memorial Monument, Washington, DC)


Visiting JFK’s resting place (Arlington National Cemetery, Virginia)


Harbour tour at Baltimore, Maryland


Run Forest! Run! (Baltimore, Maryland)


Dropped by Philly to try these cheese steaks (Philadelpia, Pensylvania)


Atlantic City Boardwalk (New Jersey)


One Twin Tower (New York City)


Radio City (New York)


Walk in Brooklyn Bridge


Good eats (New York)

Morning stroll in South Central Park (New York)


Broadway musical at Times Square (New York)


My cousins’ happy ever after (New Jersey)