You hate me. You have every right to hate me.You will tell stories about me as though I’m a monster. You wish our paths will never cross. You wish you never knew me. I am a memory you never want to remember.
But I want to tell you something, something I might not be able to say straight to your innocent face. I love you. I never meant to hurt your feelings. I never meant to ruin your faith. And I never meant to stood you up.
I regret everything I did. I regret the choices I made because I was afraid. I was afraid not of being in a relationship, but I was afraid of the thought that I might just be wasting my time. I don’t know the consequences of my choices, but I know I have to live up to it. I must endure this suffering for bringing you pain, the kind of pain that you don’t deserve. All, because I was selfish.
I love you, in all honesty and in every sense of the word love. You were everything I’ve prayed for. I’m sorry.